The Battle

Writing is the best form of expression for me.  Words flow from my brain, throughout my body, back up to my finger tips, and on to this keyboard.  Its as naked as some of y'all will get to see me. 

Well, you know I usually blog about something that is currently happening in my life and today it's going to be about a tweet I read last night and ironically enough had a conversation that followed and fit.  The tweet read: " the mental fight between good n evil of a man".

The older I get the easier it's become to embrace who I am and what I transforming into.  Things have dramatically changed from my grade school years when I was a shy but outgoing popular girl, to going after my dreams and being outcasted for it, until now.  People have came and left (You can't recycle this!) and each have entered my life for a specific reason.  I know people say that all the time, but I truly believe even those who you think barely impact your life actually do.  Life would be drastically different if I didn't interact with some of you.  I digress (as usual) the point of the above is that I am now begining to embrace every part of who I am.  I regret to inform you that although I stand completely naked in front of your computer screen when you read these blogs I cannot reveal all of who I am on here.

I will say this I have battled with good and evil inside of me for many years and I believe most of us have.  I believe that some have choosen to embrace one side at an early age and might not remember the battle, others have been scared into a side or have found that one side is easier than the other.  For me it has been a battle for as long as I can remember.  The feeling of wanting to do good and be the best person I can possibly be has always been there, but the evil has exposed itself and I've battled with it.  I'm not sure why I bother putting up a fight because I might be better off embracing it.  I know that when one focuses their "powers" can be used imensly and transformed into anything they want.

(When I say evil in no referrence is that to "satan", but rather a part of me who is deeply in love with pain.  Perhaps because I am a person of pleasure it's only right that my love of pain be as deep)

Once again I have learned to embrace these two sides and have choosen to explore them rather than push them away.  All of who I am is slowly coming into light for me.  Who I am, what I stand for, and what I want.  Powers I am capable of possessing and what I can do with it begin to surface the more I welcome these things.  I woke up feeling amazing this morning.  I got rid of some baggage last night, had a wonderful conversation with a new person, thanked God for putting me where I'm at right now, and committed to myself that I will take head on everything I unfold about who I am.

Perhaps I'm just learning to accept the imperfections and really use what gifts I am blessed with.  I hope all of you are able to do the same.

What have been your battles? Accomplishments?  What are you learning about yourself?